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It's 2 AM, I came to write... But Jesus Stopped Me...
Remember Me? Let me talk to you first, Ok, Glenda?
Soon I heard the voice I sang when younger, clear, bright, in love with Jesus, My Father, who art in Heaven, Hallowed Be Thy Name... In Praise of Jesus...
I have New Words for you to hear.. Let me lift you from your past, all the hurt, all the pain, all the confusion....I will take it away and help you sing again.. I know you feel My Presence...Relax, I Got This, Remember? Shelter in my Arms, once again, I am Here...With you... Always and Forever...
You remember with fondness the woman who told you, finally, that you had been abused, Used for your dedication and knowledge, and then, when you started asking questions, refused to lie for them, explained when they were wrong...even told them that they didn't deserve your respect, what did they do? They tossed you away... But, dear Glenda, you had already followed my guidance...you had followed the words of your pastor to get help, you followed the words of your doctor who said that you had to choose between your job and your life... I am so proud of you that you chose Life...
For, even then, Glenda, I had already started a new path for you to walk... And, when that path became one that you could no longer trust, you once again turned... You turned to me because you've always trusted me and know that I will never talk, talk, talk, let never say anything meaningful to your life's path...
I Got This, Glenda, You traveled down the new road, alone, until you once again found Me. If I haven't told you lately, I love you, my child... I have given you new songs to sing, you may not know the words, but they are the words that will sink into your turmoil, your confusion at the latest display of hatred, of lies, of pressing closely, too closely, that you feel like you can't breathe...
You are sheltered...Now and Forever...Listen to the many voices I have sent to you, telling of My Love with the world's children. All of my children. I love you all... And, I am so sorry when some force you to pause, to feel pain, the pain of loss, the confusion, the worry and concern, got to remember this or that, can't make a mistake, Truth, I must speak Truth... You want to speak the truth now, but nobody will listen... Yet, they do listen and will hear...
We see and hear the hate spewed, we know you felt sorrow. But, remember, I've Got This...
I can feel the lift from your shoulders...you are hearing my words, relaxing in my embrace. You are mine... You are in my presence right now...when you've stopped to feel me, to hear me...But, know Glenda, I am with you always...and a day...
By these new words, I want to help you realize that I am speaking to many of my children right now all over the world. They, too, are listening. And they, too, know that Hate and Vitriol--yes you spelled it right--I know I am sliding in words that you've never known or used before...But, dear Child, I know all of the words that have ever existed...don't worry about spelling, for I know you well...Feel free to proofread... You are so good at that, you have been the eyes for so many writers who have wanted somebody to read their words and instinctively know what they wanted to say to the world...
But, now, right now, I want you to hear ME. Really, I Got This... Did you not hear that even Michael is speaking differently...he is calmer, and, yes, I am speaking to him, though he is not as open to my words, his pain is much greater, because the man he trusted did more than abuse him...he lied to him continuously and pretended he cared...but we both know that man cannot care for anybody but himself, sadly...
When your mind flashed to Michael, yes, Glenda, I allowed you to stop and listen again so that I could tell you about my love for Michael as well...you are becoming quite a writer, even editing my words to you... I want to laugh out loud... your edit was needed, I agree...
Instead of trying to use your words...let me speak this time... I send peace to all who will hear ME. LOL, Glenda, stop with the proofreading, it's ok not to capitalize my name, I know your mind is flashing to a memory right now, but it's not your boss, that man who drew a black mark across a letter you had just typed... You retyped it because you cared for your own self-image... But, Glenda, I've seen ALL of your mistakes and I still love you. I will never turn away from You or any of those who have accepted my words, my request to come unto me...
Instead of writing, I want you to go ahead and read it over, correct the errors that have been made as your eyes have been closed, better to listen to my words... Remember, I am speaking of my love to so many others... Listen to the words I've sent...Believe me what I have said... we are talking in that particular song... I speak to You and then you repeat what I've said...and you say I believe... Yes, my child...
Follow your path, but listen for those twists and turns you love so much in your books... One is calling to you right now...to be read and talked about, to highlight the special words of meaning that you find...
Go now, time has past... you are free of all those things that had gone through your mind, of what you felt a need to write...but, not today, Glenda...just stop, now... It is time to rest, sleep, remember, as the song just said, I am a child of God...Yes, recognize it. Embrace it...
And remember, I Got This!
Jesus,
Your Friend, Your Father, Your Truth, Your Love, I AM all that you will ever need me to be...
First, because Joe Biden's Career is fully documented and available publicly, I will not take the time to explore his experience within the Federal Government... for comparative purposes... There is no comparison of the two candidates, in my opinion.
Early this morning, if you read my last post, I awoke shaking, having been sent back into incidents at work which led to my retirement--and a formal firing, LOL Yes, both actions were taken... That's because no leader bothered to talk to me about ending my employment without cause, after nearly 40 years...
I've had quite a week, so if you want to catch up, give me some time to go through it all and write about it... But the last post really started with the previous post, so you might want to go to that post first... Thanks!
To set the stage, I'd like to present some basic words that may be interchangeable at this time of heighten political actions in America...
I'll use two political leaders we all know:
Joe Biden is a Participatory Leader
Participative leadership is a unique leadership style, also commonly referred to as democratic leadership. Participative leaders guide their employees while encouraging them to provide feedback and participate in decision-making.--Google
Donald Trump, I believe, WAS an authoritative leader at one time
Authoritarian leadership, also known as autocratic leadership, is a management style where an individual possesses total decision-making power and retains as much authority as possible, often requiring followers to strictly adhere to their directives without much freedom or participation.* --Google
Donald Trump, has moved beyond an authoritarian leader. He is BORG...
BORG has only one leader. All emotions are removed of those assimilated, by that individual, and used as drones to maintain, expand and assimilate under that leader... Any humans not assimilated are killed. No individual, once assimilated has a name. They are BORG... serving one purpose as directed by their leader...
God Says I AM
vs
I AM BORG
Many have said through the centuries that no man can be above the law... Yet, many have tried...and succeeded in at least a certain location. USSR once claimed they were above the law...USSR fell apart...
Korea was once one country; Now it has been pulled apart...
Iran is the central collective. It funds drones such as Hamas to go out and attempt assimilation...
Of course, I could go on to illustrate what, in my life, I have seen illustrated here on Planet Earth. Authoritarian leaders have come and gone, but people all over the world continue to strive, at a minimum for just the basic needs of food and shelter... Without those, there is no movement upward in terms of human growth ( Maslow's Hierarchy of Needs). America has been seen as somewhat of a scoundrel in our history, and as a savior to many living today...
I have always seen myself as an introvert. Therefore, when I began to work, I chose to work in a support role to others, to leaders of a small part within a larger organization. That first unit was the Office of Personnel at the Land-Grant West Virginia University. I reported to the Director. I had one promotion in that office. I was staff with no authority
During that time period, I was elected by those in the clerical classification of employees to represent them in the newly formed Staff Council. I did not run for office. I was nominated and won the office. Also during that time, I joined the National Secretaries Association and was elected to the various offices of Secretary, Treasury, and President several times. As an aside, the President of the University's Secretaries both held the president's role before I was elected for the first time. NSA routinely sponsored ongoing clerical/secretarial continuing education, a number of which I was appointed to coordinate.
In order to move upward, I applied and was accepted as secretary to the Provost of the University, second in command at that time. When two other individuals left positions, I transferred to secretary to the Provost for Instruction. By that time, we had three more Provosts. All secretaries routinely initiated letters for the signature of the University's President, James G. Harlow. President Harlow was a participatory president... During his presidency, the leader of the West Virginia University Medical Center, and Hospital, also became Provost. Charles Andrews, a participatory leader, chose to completely merge within the University Administration. I was in a staff position with no authority during this period.
By that time, I had been asked to apply for the position in the newly formed Office of Facilities and Utilization. Bill Campbell was hired as an experienced individual from the University of Maryland. He was, also a participatory leader. During his leadership, I began to move into supervisory roles. Because of the senior WVU participatory leaders, when I was named as the Classroom Facilities Analyst, I was responsible for all general-purpose classroom management on all three campus, thus including the Medical Center for the first time. Additionally, I imagine it was because I had previously worked for the Provost for Instruction, I was also assigned to report directly to all Provosts. I was in line authority for the Provost for Finance and staff authority for the other offices. They, in turn, delegated my direct support to all deans and directors across the campus... I then provided staff support directly to all deans of all academic schools and colleges; all directors of support service. In that office, my positions continued to move upward until I was ultimately named as Associate Director and then Acting Director.
Note that during this previous period. I remained as staff support to all those as delegated by those responsible... I had no authority other than that delegated to me by the various responsible officers... What that meant that I acted on all Provosts needs and only went to them when a problem occurred. For instance, between two deans is I could negotiate a satisfactory settlement for both deans, I would seek final recommendation by the Provost.
But...within the Office of Facilities Analysis and Utilization, I was named as Manager, Facilities Information Systems. Additional responsibilities were assigned, I supervised those individual supporting assigned responsibilities to me... However, at no time, did I gain full responsibility; the director of that office always was finally responsible...
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In my opinion, as I have learned of the Trump Organization from various sources of information, including recent civil and criminal trials, Trump has maintained authoritarian control of his entire organization. We do know that he delegated authority to the Chief financial Officer, who, as we now know has been found guilty and is again in jail. My understanding that his children acted as somewhat of a "Cabinet." comparable to the Federal Government. However, at this time, I am not sure whether actual financial responsibility was assigned to his children. Specifically, if they had NO budgetary signature authority, then the Organization operated as BORG-- what I'm calling BORG. BORG is one entity which uses all other entities of his area of authority to improve and expand his power, The Trump Organization.
Let me use myself as related to Budget Authority. Again, within the Office of Facilities Management (title of office was expanded). I was delegated staff authority on all of my duties and responsibilities. I acted on behalf of each Provost or the President as delegated. I was given financial authority for Reports to the Federal Government regarding facilities data required in support of grants... I was given presidential authority to sign for all temporary leases as requested by the institutions deans and directors to be forwarded to State agencies. I was given Financial authority on the WVU Capital Construction multi-million dollar budget as Associate Director...
What that means is that I signed my boss's name or my own name as delegated and forwarded it on through State agencies. However, from a line authority organization which is what most institutions use. Nobody other than the president can be declared as fully responsible, except in their own areas of responsibility...
So, consider this... What we have heard through various witnesses, is that Donald Trump signed all checks. There may have been some smaller amounts, like a petty cash account, assigned for authority, such as I had, by the CFO. However, there is evidence given this week that Trump would sign all checks... Therefore, he never gave anybody actual line authority. Except perhaps the CFO...
What that means to me is that, Donald Trump's experience did not even compare to the level of President Harlow, as a participatory leader. That is, I believe he did, as part of the line authority for WVU, h delegate downward, with each provost having to some extent or total authority over any units under their respective authority.
Or, more simply... Donald Trump's leadership of The Trump Organization falls considerably lower than the duties of the president of a land-grant university...
In my opinion, Donald Trump did not have the training or experience to have become president of the United States... Based upon known facts... I did not vote for him.
Further, let's take a brief look, today, at Michael Cohen who is on trial for criminal charges from actions taken during the 2116 election. First, the only authority that Michael would has is for his credentials to act as a lawyer... He could be found liable if he failed, for instance, to follow the laws related to his position. However, he serves as a staff officer for any client... Within an organization such as The Trump Organization with an authoritarian leader, he would have absolutely no line authority or responsibility. That is, he was never given any level of authority to sign either his own name, or on behalf of Donald Trump. Therefore, from a business profile, Trump has total authority and therefore total responsibility for all documents, checks, etc., that he authorized and signs, sending on to state agencies to act upon. As you know, Trump has already been convicted of fraud within the State of New York...and is in the midst of appealing a judgment made for reimbursement to the State.
The responsibility of The Trump Organization, has been kept at the highest level of authority for most activities. Some delegation might have occurred for specific capital projects... For instance, my director would retain responsibility for legal purposes, even though I was delegated authority to manage and sign off on all financial issues...that would be based upon project officers of various projects... Thus, the children of Mr. Trump may have been given some lower level of responsibility for projects. It is highly unlikely that any of the children would have power to use Trump Organization funds without prior authority.
Trump Cabinet- children with no financial authority
His CFO
Project Office Eric (don't know whether CFO delegated authority to sign, especially if Trump signed all checks...
The purpose of this post is two-fold... One, I want to make my opinion totally clear. Of the two candidates, Joe Biden has all the credentials necessary for the position of President... Donald Trump does not.
For the purposes of my memoir, Emotionally Damaged: Living with Job Burnout, I will state that as Acting Director of the Office of Facilities Planning and Management (office title changed based upon merge of the former University Architect's Office), I believe the breadth and scope of my own responsibilities were more than Donald J. Trump as president of The Trump Organization...
One final tidbit: Donald Trump established Trump University. It went bankrupt. Trump was sued by students... I rest my case that he was not capable of being a university president, nor a country's president.
Notice that The Trump Organization is a 2-person type organization...Only one leader, everybody reporting financially through the CFO to top person, Trump...
So, if anybody asks about Trump's qualifications... Just refer that person to this post... Or, I'm a good listener; I can hear the lies that person has been told...and I'll try to help them open their minds to understand...
Earlier I stopped for lunch and a small group was talking about the presidency, after Biden challenged Trump to a debate... One of the individuals pointed out that most Americans never actually see the president do any work on a specific project... He delegates...than that person delegates...and that person delegates, and so on...
When somebody says to you, only I can fix it... Don't believe it...
Even if it were Biden... Indeed the news group were correct, no one person needs to know everything, but in order to be that top person, they need to know people skills...how to select and ensure his direct officers know enough from their direct officers...well, you know how it goes, don't you? Biden remains a participatory leader... for the Federal Government...
But note: he does not have line authority over Congress or the Attorney General's Office...
BORG WISHES TO ASSIMILATE ALL OF THAT...
BUT WHAT WOULD HAPPEN IF NONE OF THOSE WHO WERE ASSIMILATED KNEW WHAT THEY WERE DOING...
During this time, a new president was named...
Immediately changes were made...
...to be continued
The Bottom Line
Michael Cohen Has Just Been Caught
Either in a lie or from confusion
It is Irrelevant in my opinion.
During one full year after a new Assistant VP
Was Added to the Organization,
I was directed to determine and solve the problem with the Capital Construction Budget
I was the new Associate Director
I had had no earlier responsibility for capital construction
All actions were handled by licensed registered architects or experienced facilities planners, one accountant and the Board of Regents staff
That assignment took one full year.
I had to do a complete financial audit of all accounting activities, tracing project budgets, commitments, actual allocations, expenditures, payments made, as well as allocation from the Board of Regents compared to the committed allocation
When I finished, my report went directly to the Board of Regents.
I got the Board's representative call directly.
Dr. Gross, Head of State-Wide Facilities planning
told me that he was accepting my report as accurate, that the Board had not transferred the allocated amount as I'd documented
But...
that the Board no longer had the amount which my audit showed was not yet received by WVU.
He, of course, provided no further information.
He simply said he was giving us what was left,
slightly over $1M Capital Construction designated Dollars
It is irrelevant that Cohen was even the person involved as Trump's fixer...
All financial documentation shows that
Stormy Daniels was paid $130,000
And that a hand-written note documenting the amount and method of how the money was to be handled has all been provided.
My heart hurt when I heard that Michael had been taunted over and over and over to verify that he had lied time after time to cover his boss's indiscretion.
That's how an authoritarian individual works
Trump has obviously told his lawyer what to do.
I, too, have been caught in such situations
Not of lying, rather about having to explain to academic deans exactly why they didn't get their requests approved or funded.
Based upon an authoritarian leader
who told me everything was now to go through him.
I didn't do it...
I maintained my personal ethics
for the good of the University
GABixler
*Donald Trump has already been found guilty of fraud in business in New York. He now owed nearly 1/2 Billion dollars. Status He is Appealing...
*Donald Trump has already been found guilty of rape in New York. He was forced to pay the complainant $5M. Then, based upon his continued defamation of this woman, a new jury gave the complainant over $40M... Trump is Appealing the amount to be paid.
*At present Donald Trump has been indicted and is now being tried in court...Trial is set to finish, perhaps within the week...
It is 4 AM; I Awake From Sleep Shaking, Having a Panic Attack, Can't keep from moving. Got to Calm Down. Many Flashbacks... Comparisons...Rocking Movements: I Know that I Know that I Know..... I have Worked with Jesus Speakers. With Godly believers...
I have worked...with BORG... Rocking back and forth, sitting... Trying to Calm down... I... Rocking more slowly... still shaking inside... I have seen More of BORG in Power... Where are the Jesus Speakers...? I remember one, only one leader who clearly spoke Jesus...Sadly... But!
I take deep breaths... I have known many Jesus Speakers working beside me...within my community sphere... So many of BORG in positions of Control... Corporations not allowing easy contact with complaints... Leaders who think they know what to do; and don't... Leaders who care only about power and money--not their most important asset--people!
VOTERS: There is a difference...between candidates... I have been placed in a position to have watched both candidates daily on the news, in their ads...in their actions...in their words... since 2016. I am an Independent at heart. Voter Rules forced me to choose...
In 2016, I chose Democrats... Democrats seek to serve, democrats believe in diversity, democrats show no prejudice toward any person, (as a group) democrats work for the good of the people. It is their...responsibility... They do their job...
In 2016 (and before) those of the BORG were assimilated to ensure America would be changed. BORG assimilates; that is their function; they have assimilated QAnon, Proud Boys, KKK, Nazi sympathizers, White Supremacists, evangelical christianity leaders, christian nationalists, corporate leaders, Fox News, codependents, gunlovers, those who act with violence, egotists, many republicans you will know they are not christians...they have no love for their neighbor... Their god is power and riches...they are BORG
Joe Biden Speaks Jesus, He even met with the Pope when some questioned his stand on Abortion and other issues... The Pope blessed him... More, however, God has given him the gift of love even through pain and loss. He has the gift of God's empathy... His Love for all mankind... Biden acts on his beliefs and has spent this life dedicated to serving the people of the nation. He is dedicated, strives to do the right thing, even when it is impossible or because of BORG... (Those in the republican party who vote against anything that does not support BORG...which means BORG is against the majority of the people of America...and all God's people in the world.)
Biden visits with parents of children killed in gun shooting, listening to their parents begging for action against guns... he explains BORG limitations, but pressure against BORG continues... Biden speaks to the BORG prime minister of Israel...who seeks only retribution and power to cover his own offenses... BORG has power not yet stopped by those who speak Jesus... BORG assimilates, taking whole countries, destroying those who do not bow down to BORG... to those who cherish freedom, free will...
And, Biden weeps... He feels the pain of those suffering, terrified for life, or filled with the fear of not having enough money to provide basic needs of food and shelter to all people... More importantly, Biden acts...within taking office, he created a completely diversified Cabinet to ensure input of information...he prioritized...COVID plans never made by BORG were handled as quickly as possible and he led America in all ways through the pandemic... Infrastructure was funded and implemented...not done in years; BORG fought funding allocations... Biden restored America's friendship with those countries who embrace democracy once again... and so much more...
It's Easy Folks: Biden speaks Jesus; FREEDOM
And we know: Trump is BORG, he speaks violence and retribution...
BORG WISHES TO ASSIMILATE AMERICA, UKRAINE, PALESTINE, ISRAEL, SOUTH KOREA; THAT IS, ALL DEMOCRATIC COUNTRIES WHOSE PEOPLE WANT Freedom and action by Politicians.
BORG ASSIMILATES ALL PEOPLE MAKING SLAVE DRONES TO KEEP BORG ALIVE AND POWERFUL...
Trump is BORG
DISCLAIMER: I ACKNOWLEDGE THIS COULD BE PHOTOSHOPPED...BUT, THEN, AGAIN...
I've heard his garbage mouth myself
like that which he is now being charged in NY
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CHOOSE BIDEN OR WHOEVER YOU KNOW
CHOOSES DEMOCRACY AND FREEDOM
BORG Assimilates!
this seems to be many republicans
And BORG specifically as defined above.
Biden...Democrats are Right
The Soul of America
Sweet Land of Liberty
is under siege...
Vote
Fight ASSIMILATION
FIGHT FOR FREEDOM
FIGHT BORG LIFE UNDER Trump...
I Support Joe Biden
I Support Freedom
I Support the Constitution
I Support the Great I AM
God of all Creation!
Please note...I will continue to get specific in how i learned the difference between leaders while working...for nearly 40 years... next...
Also FYI: Beginning today, I will be identifying only Open Memoir (of My Life) Relevant book titles will be provided as Hashtags...
She hazarded a sideways glance at the driver, but it only heightened her anxiety. Knuckles white, the man in the Armani suit leaned forward, his squinting eyes nearly touching the front window. What the hell is going on? She watched him shake his head, clearly frustrated. “Sorry, Beth, we gotta pull off the road. Can’t see through this fog.” The young woman looked out the passenger window. Foggy, yes, but she could easily see a good fifty feet or so into the densely packed trees that seemed to have swallowed the highway. A thread of unease raised the hairs on her arms. Why did he choose this “short-cut?” If he was worried about the fog, their gradual descent into the valley toward the river would have only increased its thickness. Her stomach lurched when she wondered if she might actually be in danger.
He turned toward her. The expression on his face was as contrite as his words. “Oh, gosh. I’m so sorry, but I’m having a bit of difficulty seeing.” He looked back at the road and took a deep breath. “I have glaucoma. Early onset. I haven’t told too many people yet. My job, you know.” He went back to squinting at the road. Now understanding his strange behavior, she breathed a sigh of relief and berated herself for being so suspicious. Her nursing background immediately rose to the forefront. Beth gave what she hoped he would perceive as a sisterly pat on his arm. “Don’t worry. I understand. Do you want me to drive?” His eyes didn’t leave the road, but his brow furrowed and he tilted his head. She hoped she hadn’t offended him. Having known him only for a day, she didn’t know whether or not his male ego could bruise easily. Then he turned to her. “Yes, I suppose that would be a good idea, Angie. I know a turn-off …”
He scanned the woods. “Yeah, here.” The car swerved abruptly. Startled, she felt an unwanted jolt of adrenaline. He slowed his car as they drove down a narrow gravel road. Okay, that’s weird … why did he call me Angie? And that’s the second time he’s made that slip. What’s with that? Maybe a former girlfriend? Is this a rebound situation? Wife? Nice guy, but this is all too weird. She looked over her shoulder and watched the gravel road disappear into the gray shroud. A few seconds later, the car skidded to a stop. He patted the wheel, reassuring the inanimate object that all would be well. He turned and gave her a warm smile and shrugged his shoulders. “Sorry. I hoped to entertain you with my charming wit, but this damn fog …”
She melted a bit inside. Poor guy, he’s mortified. “Hey,” she said quickly, hoping to stem his embarrassment, “No big deal.” He sighed and fumbled with the door handle. “Oh, well. Safety first, huh? Let’s switch.” Simultaneous clicks while unfastening their seatbelts generated an agreeable chuckle from both man and woman. The small moment of humor helped defuse the remainder of Beth’s tension. Sighing with relief about her former worries, she figured her concerns had about as much substance as the surrounding fog. Beth had met Allen Nordstrom at the hotel bar the night before. A good-looking man with a deceptive solidness under his flannel shirt; he was polite and soft-spoken. In a world of rude, macho men, he seemed to be the exception. With a career in law enforcement, he came to Rochester to investigate some crime, the details of which he apologetically declined to share with her. They hit it off right away sharing a common interest in dogs (both owned golden retrievers) and music … the classics: Beatles and Arrowsmith.
After a half hour of enjoyable chit-chat, he shook her hand and said goodnight. With a twinkle in his eye, he leaned over the table and whispered into her ear his last, humorous anecdote and left her laughing. She watched him walk away and wondered what might have been if things had gone a bit further. For once she’d actually met a really nice guy. A minute later he returned. “Look, please believe me when I tell you this. I’ve never done this before. Well, I mean I’ve talked to women in bars before, but I’ve never come back. I don’t know, it’s just that well…we really connected.” He looked away, obviously frustrated with his fumbling speech.
The man closed his eyes for a moment and turned back to her. “Do you like fish fries?” She laughed. “Yes, but not at ten o’clock at night.” “No,” he said with a chuckle. “I know this great restaurant half an hour south of here. Best fish fry in New York State. I could take you there for lunch tomorrow, and have you back in time for your plenary session at three.” Since she had no scheduled meetings until the last session of the conference, she agreed. He met her in the lobby of the hotel, dressed more formally than the night before. “Sorry, a meeting with some folks at the sheriff’s office,” he explained. Then he proceeded to do all the right things: opened the door for her, entertained her with more stories about his police work. Humorous, no gore. And, he was right. It was the best fish fry she had ever had. She smiled at the memories as she cut through the mist surrounding the car. Chilly, she pulled her coat tighter across her body. Passing each other with a smile, she said “You’re right. We’ll be back before three.”
She felt a tap on her shoulder. She turned, a smile on her face. He smiled back at her and, as though it was as natural as shaking hands, pressed a wet handkerchief against her nose and mouth. Her first reaction was one of disgust. Hadn’t he sneezed into it during their lunch? She instinctively struggled, but he was surprisingly strong and she couldn’t move her head away. She inhaled a sickly-sweet aroma and then drifted into blackness.
~~~
Robert Sells starts off his Latest Novel with a Bang--or a little bit of chloroform... This victim wasn't the first and if he had a choice, it wouldn't be the last...
I will not let the past rule my present …
And Becca was coming home, damaged, only to be caught right in the middle of it all!
Becca had just told Cassie, her best friend, that she was coming home to Mayburg. She tried to let her know that it would not be a permanent move, she just needed to come home and work on her next novel and make her deadline... Which would be a lot harder since it would be a new story that needed to be created, as opposed to writing about true crime. Becca's first book had been more cathartic than to make money and a new career... Worse, the publisher now wanted her to add a murder in her next book! Really? Did anybody actually read her book?!
Twelve years ago, one of her best friends had been murdered... She had been on and off again spending time in therapy, where she did learn that time doesn't necessary heal all wounds... At least she had been able to breathe a little easier... Especially when she gave her a new mantra to say under her breath, whenever needed, "I will not let the past rule my present..."
But sometimes that just isn't possible, especially when she learned that a murder had just been committed! And the way it was done was exactly the same as the one that killed her friend 12 years ago... The bodies had been positioned as close as possible to a famous painting...
What could possibly have happened to have this repeated? Was it a recognition of the earlier death? Or was it a copycat? And, she had to wonder, surely, it could not have anything to do with her return???
Damn it! Am I to be haunted again
by this new murder?
No way around it, I was in our main character's corner right from the beginning... We soon learn that not only had her best friend been murdered, her father the Police Chief had committed suicide...
And, would you believe, while she thought that, maybe, if she whispered her mantra hour on the hour, the thought crossed her mind that this murder could be the one to include in her new book... But, hey, this author hasn't stopped laying it on hard for Rebecca... She knew that if she did take this on, she would have to work with the town police... The man with whom she went to the senior prom and attempted to rape her... Seriously, Robert?! Anything else that you want your main character to be dealing with, I thought... LOL
Oh, let's just keep going, shall we? Soon, the boy for whom she had had a big crush in school, but who had actually been her best friend's boyfriend, was now the Sheriff... and she had flashed back to the one day in the hall when he leaned up against the wall, pinning her, flirtingly whispering...
Only to have Angie, come to interrupt him... and he walked off with her, not looking back... But, now, John Talbott knew she was back and soon came calling...
Ok that's two of the three men who had been close to her 12 years ago. The last one had been Angie's older brother! And, yep, there was more tension when he asked her out too!
Really, could it have still another twist? Well, when she finally had the time to look over some of her father's private files, she found his case file for Angie's attack. All three of the men with whom she was now, possibly, romantically involved, was on his suspect list...! Seriously, you just can't make this kinds of stuff up...unless you're Author Sells...having fun on his latest...
After I learned all this...and much more... I had to laugh at Sells' wordplay, with the title of the book... Because I was thinking. Becca, your chance at an affair...with murder...in the picture, is so not a good idea... But, you know what, as the investigation heated up, Rebecca realized one thing, and it made it all worth while, she realized that she was much stronger than she thought she was... And, that she really wanted to ride along to learn as much about the who, what, when and where of this murder mystery that she was committed to include in her next book!
You know what, readers, the real writer, Robert Sells, has created a delightful story even with the mess of murder investigations and what secrets were coming to light. His heroine proved to be more gutsy than even she thought she was...Cool, right?! And the ending was, actually, quite sweet and romantic--at the very end because it took that long to decide just who she was really attracted to enough to explore the future further! Besides ensuring that she didn't pick the serial killer...
There was heartbreak, but a cleansing type of fulfilment that only comes after a long period of living with trauma... And, with a writer investigator who now gets to be an amateur detective who actually gets to work alongside an expert, I was fully into the whodunit! Sit back and enjoy solving the mystery, that has more to do with finding a lover than actually solving the mystery... Just my personal opinion, of course... I was, in my mind, telling Becca, this one...not that one...and, for sure, definitely not the third one! Hope you enjoy as much as I did!
You may remember recently that I asked for Prayer Warriors to be with me during the writing of my memoirs... I acknowledged that I was more of a person to move forward to tell, to speak words I had in my heart... But as I woke at 1AM this morning and immediately started to write, I received a gentle nudge... and the Words... In HIS Love... Of course, I knew what I had been neglecting... I had not stopped to share my giving of praise to Him... For, without God sending His Son, We would never have been able to actually Know Him Through His Holy Spirit...
God told me..."I Got This, Glenda!"
And I Immediately Cried Out.
He reminded me that I had accepted His Promise
That He was indeed in Control...
But, like so many others, I had forgotten
I had taken control back into my hands...
I needed to read this next book, or that book
trying to find the words to convince this person or that one
I am reminded that from the very beginning of our new relationship, he had accepted me as I am... He had given me a mind, a questioning mind. I was His modern-day Doubting Thomas... I wanted to know the Why behind all that was within my life... the World... I needed, I wanted, the words that somebody would hear, read that could explain what was happening... I had been obsessed with needing to explain the God I Knew... that He was NOT the God of Violence, retribution...and all the other hateful words that were being thrown through the air for the children, yes, even the children to hear and, as I knew well, try to also understand...
Give it a rest, Glenda
I got this...
Why do you weep when I Speak
After all you bravely proclaim
I Speak Jesus...
Well, I have heard you and I happen to
Speak Jesus too...
Isn't that Wonderful?
Your Thoughts are My Thoughts
And I've Just Shown you, Haven't I
A Few minutes you flash backed to your memory
so I pulled up the song for you to play
Remember? It was the first time
that at a special service that somebody behind the scenes
added the sound of a hammer
pounding the nails into my hands
into my ankles
that you knew, really, that I had died
For You...
You've always know that I was Above All
that was happening on earth...
You even have my picture here at
Book Readers Heaven...of Me Laughing
Yes, I know It is Not Funny
But, really, Glenda, Think About It
This has happened so many times before
There are really few NEW ideas from
those that I have created...
Glenda you enjoy Playlists for your books,
so this is what I've provided this day
Using words of songs to speak Jesus to you
who Speaks Jesus daily
I love you for that.
And I give you my Assurance
Everything is moving at the slow pace of nature
For, you, see, I have Used those who have turned away
to Open Those of You Who Are MY FOLLOWERS
MY BASE
AND THEY ARE LEGION, I PROMISE YOU...
By the way, I loved hearing you sing harmony
Yes, it was me who helped your voice
come clear and clean with that strength from your youth
For, my Child, you are Still Young to me
And you Will Always Be With Me
Will you always continue to sing for Me, please...
I love you, too...
And Know This, My Child
You Speak Jesus, Because I am In You
Those Who Open Their Hearts to Me
Who listen for My Words
Will, indeed, Hear
This, I promise to you and to all Who Follow Me
You were just 13 when I touched you
You were Baptized in my name and became wholly mine
I have watched you, search... I remember all the books
you bought to learn more about me
Those written by those, sometimes, who didn't fully know Me
You remember the one I mean, don't you?
The author was writing to say just when the world would end
It didn't happen, did it...
I used it to teach you that man is
only human, but
you did learn, didn't you?
I noticed when you always selected songs to sing
that sought Me to come into Your heart...
Into My Heart you sang as a child.
And, Child, I did come, didn't I?
And when you left me to seek more of YOU.
I watched, but I never left you.
I knew you had to find your own way
That is WHY I give all Free Will
Otherwise, you indeed, would be
somebody that you now disdain
somebody who follows a man that is not of Me
Yet uses my name for personal power
Remember, though, I alone give judgment
By the way, what you recently said, you were close
to exactly what is to happen...
Because there is too much violence, too many guns
too much hate,
Behold I will speak through You
I will and am speaking through people who write
I am speaking through those who speak Truth
I am speaking through those who Love
Those who love ALL OF my children
and yes, even those who have gone astray
Perhaps for a while...
But, it will always be Free Will
For a man who claims that only He is Retribution
is and can never be
WHO I AM...
When I gave my Son
I had hoped it would be the time for Paradise
But even when He said to reject all that had been written before
That His/My words were to be Heard
You have heard; others have heard
Many have not...
I AM
God of all Time
Time was given to all of you to continue to learn
to study, to develop new talents to give in love
You and many have understood the gift of th talents
you seek more and more reasons through learning to give to others
to love and help others to, in turn, move forward in who I envisioned
Those who refused to stop looking to the past for their guidance
Have ignored my greatest gift.
Jesus
And His Words
His Guidance
His Love and Truth
I AM
You know, my child
I really am worthy to be worshipped.
That's why Jesus was Given
I wanted to be a Part of Your Life(lives)
I wanted more to help you learn to explore
All of the majesty of the worlds that I've created
Perhaps to explore in the future like Trekkies
Or perhaps to explore the past and learn from it
much like you did when you read Lilith
I am so happy when I see you read words of my children
and see, hear, and know the message to be received
There is so much to learn, advances to move forward...
The gifts given to humans are for the good of the world
